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May all be happy :)

Unrealistic Optimism..!!!

Dear diary,

There are so many thoughts in my head that I would like to share with you. I wanted to write an article on it but it seems like I have lost my touch in this area. I feel more relaxed at writing when it's personal and not something I write as a third person. 

From the past few experiences I have started to realize that how it is tough to fulfill our dreams and goals. I have always been an optimistic person with lot of dreams and goals to fulfill. There are some things that I want to learn for a long time and I had lots of time to work hard and learn those things. But like always I have not been able to start with those things. I do feel little disappointed in myself for not doing the things I wanted to do  but there is still hope of doing it and accomplish my little dream. This optimism never leaves and I wait for the next right moment when I could do the things I want to do. And this circle keeps on repeating with a never dying optimism.

There are lots of people in this world who want to improve themselves in certain area, or like me want to learn something but are not able to start with it or leaves it in mid way. Then as a result some quits and some numbs that part of themselves which longed to do it. I am lucky in one thing that I am optimistic although it is unrealistic optimism in my case but still it helps me in not giving up on that thing. Although I may not be doing anything towards that dream of mine but at least it will stay in my head telling me how much I want it and someday I will overcome all the barriers and will fulfill my little dream in reality. 

Not everyone succeed in one go, for some there seems to be never ending tries to reach to final destination. So never give up, if there are so many failures  but if it's your dream then give it a pause but never quit because someday you will create a miracle and you wouldn't know how but you will create it. You may think that it is my unrealistic optimism speaking but believe me miracles do happen.  :) 

Last time together..!!!

To every moment that passes by,
To every breath that is taken in,
I wish to do something,
That does not make them a waste,

But the moment passes,
Time flies,
Still there is no activity,
That could save this sinking soul,

It's not I don't try,
It's just, not enough,
Every night I make a promise,
Tomorrow will be the day,
When u and me will create a magic,
As this is our last chance,

Last chance to fight together,
Last chance to win together..!

Temporary Happiness...!

Hello to all those who are reading my blog(if there is any!). Well sometimes I use this blog to vent out my personal thoughts in the form of 'Dear Diary', as there are not much readers and I have started liking it that way. So today I want to talk about something called 'Internal Happiness'. Well it may sound like a spiritual post, like I am preaching the teaching of internal happiness and inner peace, but don't you worry, I am no preacher as I am still learning to live a happy life.

It's been months, I have been trying to find happiness and like most of the times I do get it but for temporary. Now when this temporary happiness fades away, the hunt begins to find happiness again. The void that it filled, it rejuvenates, leaving a suffering me. In a day there are so many moments, like fun with friends and family, playing, being in a competition and winning it. All these moments gives happiness and are fully savored, they not gonna last for long and when they will get over, I will be back to the suffering me.
I look at  my friends and other people around me. All are suffering, some with boyfriend/girlfriend issues, some with job/money issues, some with being recognized among the crowd and some with making both ends meet. Like me, they too enjoy in the moments and forget their pain and sufferings for a while, as all it takes to live a happy moment is to be in the present without worrying about the future. But unlike all my friends, my suffering is the result of those very moments that give me happiness. As the moments pass, happiness too passes, leaving the suffering me.

Like I mentioned that it's been months, I have been trying to find happiness and I am failing, but like a pure sagittarian, I am an optimistic person and try to find new ways to attain that happiness, that would stay and fill the void forever. Well in my search of this happiness, I try to undertake lot of adventures, like learning singing, composing, researching, experimenting, playing instruments, learning martial arts (which I want to but not done yet, but someday I will), meditating (trying to unravel the spiritual me and new dimensions if they exist) and lot more. But all this goes in vain, as like every time, I just become the victim of these moments. When these moments arrive, I am at my best and it feels like being the happiest person and it will last forever. But soon after sometime this euphoria settles and I am back to the suffering me. It feels like being played by your own happiness.

Life is grateful to me when it comes to materialism, or social life. But no matter how much successful you might be or how much appreciated you might be, inside there is still an unquenchable thirst, making you suffer  constantly and putting you on a hunt for happiness.

All I wish now is for a miracle, which helped me in my past, to take me out of this misery and let me come back to my sweet home, where I can sleep like a child forever. (If someone did read it, then don't think of sleeping like a child forever as a metaphor to death but it depicts the peace and I wish for this peace to stay forever once I get it.)

But it still feels like...!

So many things are bought,
So many moments are captured,
Friends made,
Happiness shared,

But it still feels like
Nothing happened,
No happiness was gained,
No memory was created,

So many obstacles were overcome,
From failure, success was achieved,
So many moments to feel blessed,
To be thankful and be happy,


But it still feels like
Nothing happened,
No happiness was gained,
No memory was created,

It still feels normal,
Like life is just moving
From present to future,
Creating a past of blank roll,
On which moments were captured
But never appeared when it was developed...!

In the Blues...!

In the blues, there was a light,
A light that spoke of solace,
I wish I could shine in that light,
Taste the clarity, it promised,
But as it went on, it grew more intense,

The clarity I seek for, turned to blind me,
Shutting my eyes, taking me

BACK TO THE BLUES...!

Wake up..!

Hello everyone. I am the writer of this blog and all the post are the outcome of the emotions I am sailing at the time of writing, My life has been a roller coaster ride and like another rider I have seen the ups and down phases of this ride. Sometimes its amazing but at the other moment its not what you dream of. Joy and sorrow, happiness and numbness not always feel the same.
Like I said this blog is like a ocean and every post in it is a tide depicting the rise and fall of my emotions. While writing this post my eyes are closed and I am listening to the song, 'Reborn' by Klak Tik. It goes with the line that, "I thought I really knew what freedom really means" and one more line saying that, "and I have finally woken up to the beauty of the world through a love song". I have started liking this song as the song gives me the hope that I can wake up to the beauty of life. Emotions right now are entangled, life seems to be at pause, like it still is sleeping and I am anxiously waiting for it to wake up, open it's eyes and see the bright sun in the clear blue sky.

I wish to wake up,
As I've been sleeping for a month,
Wish to feel the rush of energy,
The rush of warmth,
Like this song,
I wish to wake up,
Through a love song...